2nd Maternity Leave

Well today is my last day working since i have started my maternity leave from tomorrow onwards. The due date for my second baby is on 15th October 2012 but yelahh he/she will not be coming out exactly on the given date kan..maybe awal, maybe lewat..Plus i think its time for me to have a good rest as well since i felt my belly getting heavier and lowered nowadays..Walking from main hall to the kitchen pun rase jauh and tiring (*pemalas*)

Anyway, pengasuh Delisya pun seems like a lil bit sad to get separated with her for almost 2 months. I said no worries, by the time im coming back, i'll send two kids sekali..haaa kan package tu adek bradek! ^_^ so they laugh..Hopefully they can took care of my baby like their own child la..of course ade terlintas dlm fikiran pasal kes baby tersedak susu but i pray so hard to God that evrythng will be fine and dijauhkan dari berfikiran negatif all the time..

Honestly felt lil bit sad sebab Delisya dulu x dihantar mane2 coz at that time, im a fulltime housewife, so die dpt fully breastfeed x kire mase..but yg kedua ni, im a working mom and i didnt plan to quit from my job yet so terpaksa la hantar ke taska..sorry honey but mommy and daddy had to work since the cost of living is getting higher & higher nowadays and we just wanna give u and sister a good life..

I also plan to breast feed my baby sampai die setahun at least. Delisya dpt BF sampai 2 tahun. Its good that she no more want my milk sbb dah serik kena asam jawa. Bukan ape, she had enough so save la skit susu yg ada ni for adik..plus she/he will need it more than u do,newborn babies senang kene jaundice so mmg mama dah prepare ape patut hopefully adik Delisya sihat walafiat fizikal & mental..

I think im gonna get some gift la for Mami & Cikgu Delisya lunch time karang. Maybe a choclate with flowers or cute bear will do sbg token of appreciation sbb jaga Delisya dgn baik and ajar mcm2 kat die selama 7 bulan lepas..lagipun apelah sgt kalau nak dibandingkan dgn kegembiraan Delisya everytime sampai nursery tiap2 pagi..semangat nak masuk sampai x sempat2 nak kiss goodbye! ~_~

Maternal & Lactating Formula

Well i've been thinking lately of switching a formula milk for this second pregnancy and thought of Enfamama A+. Last pregnancy i had Anmum Materna and i dont really like the taste. Its too creamy and i couldnt even finished it until Delisya was born and it end up goes all the way to the bin. Made a comparison, of course Anmum brands provides 100% folate, gangliosides,DHA and Calcium and most importantly it contains less sugar but i it just taste yuuukksss man..i dunno..trpaksa minum je utk jaga hati suami *sigh* 

Im not a drinking milk type of person. Kalau Dutch Lady kotak tu, can drink la,no problem but not everyday coz mual kan..but since im having a baby inside i had no choice but to drink milk like everyday kot to support the growth and provide more calcium for the baby and me. 

Last time mase mengandung Delisya, i had toothache at night. This time gigi geraham kanan boleh reput! Unbelievable but nothing to be shocked coz baby dlm perut dh serap kalsium kan so thats what happened when i dont have sufficient milk inside hahahaa..

But once i tried Enfamama (Choc Flavor), i was shocked coz i could finished the whole glass. Its not that bad actually huh! Still creamy but not too sweet..taste like Dutch Lady choclate dlm kotak tu la. Bezanya i always drink cold milk,tapi yg ni warm sikit..Swallow jer dlm keterpaksaan hopefully cepat habis!!!

But guess what, the good facts about this maternal & lactating formula is that it has 76% less fat compared to full cream milk powder. Besides, its supplement formulated to support nutritional needs of a mother and developing baby during pregnancy and later, throughout lactation. So baby inside dapat absorb its nutrition needed and at the same time Delisya dpt jugak from breastfeeding. 

Paling bagus is that EnfaMama A+ contains Triple Protection Guard , a unique blend of nutrients including Folic Acid, Iron and Calcium to help support nutritional needs of mother during pregnancy and later, throughout lactation. So i had less worried kalau 1 or 2 hari ter'skipped' amik vitamin2 yg doctor provide during pregnancy hahahaaa... bagus kan!

So all the pregnant mummies out there, tak rugi consume Enfamama ni, sodaapp! I havent try Vanilla flavour yet coz nak habiskan Choclate dulu...^_^

Ovarian Cyst

I kept wondering what is the thing that caused severe pain at my stomach lately. Rase senak yang amat2 sangat specially waktu2 malam or subuh. When my husband ask how i feel, its hard to describe contohnye kalau senggugut or contraction or cirit ke something i could have tell him but this is very unusual and i've never experienced things like this before. Last time i had this pain was in early July 2012,the pain started from 11pm and goes on until 4am..i did walked around the house to ease the pain and it stopped just like that. The second time was in Kuching, i assume the aircond was too cold coz i usually had this kind of situation during night and dawn but then i end up woke up freshly in the morning like nothing happened last night coz the pain gone just like that!

But this time is worse. On Thursday morning started 6am i feel the pain dh mula brdenyut2. Tried to sleep back and hoped it goes away but i cant even close my eyes coz it was just about to start. I could do nothing than just lay down,pusing kiri x selesa,pusing kanan x selesa,try meniarap pun x selesa coz rase baby 'terpenyek'..called my husband,die suruh calm down n fought with it slowly..

9am - Texted my boss told him im sick,might be late..he ask me to rest first and come in when i get better. Delisya dah bangun and mcm biase la,cari toys and sit watched me baring. i guess she didn't understand why i still didn't get up from bed and take her to shower like everyday. I wanted to cry seeing her running to kitchen carrying a cookie jar for breakfast. I opened up and she took more than 3 biscuits. i let her messed the bed with the sugar and pieces of biscuits and she knows where to find her drinking bottle..pity my girl..after finished the cookies,she run around the house dengan pampers yg dh penuh. I felt totally sad coz i couldnt even get up and fight with the pain every second hopefully i get the strength even just for awhile utk mandikan Delisya and make her a bottle of milk..Husband and mak dekat Kedah,Ayah kat Jerantut,Adik kat Pilah,kwn2 semua tgh kerja..nasib baik Eza was in Sendayan unfortunately her house was like 2km frm my house, x sanggup susahkan die jln kaki jauh2 tengah2 matahari nak naik pulak tu altho she offered to come,last2 i gave up and ask her to come,at least got someone to look after Delisya.

12pm - Adam is on the way from Kuala Pilah. Eza sampai je she climbed the gate and masuk rumah seakan seorang pencuri la. I had no choice but to let her in coz the key was at the main hall. She find me lying on bed mcm 'pompuan gile' yg tgh brtarung kesakitan. She quickly grabbed Delisya and mandikan die,pakaikan baju and bagi makan minum semua. Then only she came to me and dukung masuk toilet..habisla muntah2 aku tepi katil tadi dipijak Qusay n Delisya..man..that was totally sucks!!In the bathroom, she had no choice but to get me naked la,ape lagi and buka shower,shampoo and sabun 1 badan. Aku dh memang mcm org lumpuh terus! Waktu ni baru Adam sampai and she dressed me up,ikat rambut,pakai stokin semua la coz im freezing like hell..TUHAN jelah balas semua yg dia buat tu..without her, i dont know what will it be..

Sampai hospital,check2 terus admitted..while waiting for bed,bgtau my mum,die rase guilty coz cant be there when im sick..dah cakap hari tu,husband outstation this 6 weeks,duk la rumah sini teman but she refuse coz my house got no internet access..So now when things like this happened,memang patut la she feel guilty..imagine if Eza takde..gosh!horrible..

6pm - The nurse tak bagi makan minum coz suruh ready for operation. Tuhan je tau how thirsty i was x makan minum since 6am. Drip dah 4 bottle dh. Kiri kanan tangan dh bersilang siur dgn jarum..Haisshh memang penat sgt waktu tu sampai kul 8 mlm baru boleh lelap jap..

Sekarang baru la aku tau ape punca sakit that im having tu sbnrnye..Maybe all ladies out there dh aware with this but for those yg x tau,i'll share with u at this link..(http://drzubaidi.com/blog/?p=804)

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Monthly Checkup

Paling aku benci dlm tempoh mengandung dua je: MUNTAH2 dan MONTHLY CHECKUP! aku boleh tahan lagi kalau sakit pinggang,letih badan,pening2 tp dua bnda tu buat aku lemah sgt..this morning aku trpaksa ajak husbnd teman gi Klinik Sendayan sbb baru first time nk register,xtau jln..sblm ni kan wat checkup kat Klinik Desa Teluk Kemang which is very excellent sbb org tak ramai,even ramai pun,servis cepat dan mesra.So kite x rase mcm gi Klinik,rase cm pegi umah mak bidan pulak..tp kat Klinik Sendayan td aku smpai dlm kul 9,org byk jgk. So daftar Delisya 18 bulan utk amik suntikan yg terakhir, After that baru register buku mengandung and scan td doctor kata dh 8 minggu..

Mase Delisya kene cucuk td,die cam tersentak jap,jerit nk escape tp after ditekap dgn kapas,die ceria balik,siap lari2 belakang langsir..kuat btl ank mama..tp bile tang mama die checkup,berjam2 jdnye..bygkan dr kul 9 sampai 1145am br setel!mau tak hangin 1 badan??yg papa nye dh tarik muka n marah2 sbb kene control isha during aku dlm blk doctor..so salah aku ke?sabar je la kan?cmne nk jd bapak lau kerenah anak pun nk brsungut!belum kene control dua org lg tu!geram pulak aku dgn laki aku tuh!

Servis pun dinafikan lembab! Dorg byk brsembang ngn rakan sekerja sambil tulis2.Hadoi...mcm nak maki je rase..ingt kite ni takde keje lain ke nk tggu hadap klinik tu je dr pg sampai tghari..nasibla dh name pun klinik kerajaan..ke swasta kang,bayar pulak...kan bazir tu..yg aku ni ha puaslah bersabar dgn rse nk muntah ade,lapar ade..paling aku tension tau sbb ape?dorg tanye details cam pekerjaan suami isteri, tahap pendidikan..bile tang profession aku,aku ckp la pembaca berita..memang silap besar la kan.aku x expect pulak dorg akn trkejut and tnye mcm2 sgala mak nenek.dr kat nurse,sampai kat tukang amik darah,doctor sume aku kene repeat blk the same answer!aku ptt ckp je aku ni keje juli..that will be the last time i'll admit my real job!pasni org tanye,trpakse aku ckp aku keje admin je ke or thngs like that!

My Baby

Last night i had a very wonderful dream again.. I dreamt of my baby where i could see transparently in my stomach how beautiful he/she is..kening and mata just like papa,muka bulat and mintak didukung..so i took him/her out and pakaikan die baju,timang2 die..and its a BOY!hehee funny when i thought it was a girl..

I know it sounds ridiculous but its just a dream kan..but i am so excited sampai bile terjaga,rase sedih je coz its a dream rupenye..takpelah..just wait for the time to come la..=(( im happy when the moment i wrote this blog,the baby's keep on kicking from inside and im wonder wht he's/she's doing right now..u know i just cant wait to see you my dear..i love u so much!!

I wonder u will look like me or like ur papa heheee..plus i love to see my tummy beralun2 bile baby mngeliat or do some movement..OMG y am i so overexcited ek?its like im the only one in this world pulak yg mengandung..haisshh sounds irritating kan???

Baju2 baby sume dah ready..cume yg takde set berpantang mama je lg..the rest all ready..baby cot sayang mama dah pasang siap2 lg..papa pun makin tak sabar2 nak sambut baby..atuk ngn nenek takyah ckpla..nak pulak ni cucu sulung dlm both family..=)))

Anyway baby..im still thinking about your name....

Sarat..

Lame rasenye tak update blog..kdg2 byk nak tulis tp kemalasan yg melampau2 menghalang aku nk update blog ni. Tambah plak dgn charger laptop rosak + malas nak guna PC...

Sekarang kandungan aku dah masuk 36 weeks..perut pun dh turun kebawah sgt..sometimes rase berat sgt,bile berjalan cam orang tua..slow motion je tp nak wat cmne..pinggang sakit2..kadang2 orang tgk perut aku cam tak caye je aku dh dekat due date sbb kecik molek je..maybe sbb aku pun takdela gemok mane so i guess its normal kot..

Until now im still working and belum decide lagi tarikh nak start taking leave..Memang aku dh menyampah gile nak keje tapi at the same time aku pun taknak manjakan sangat diri aku duk baring melingkar je kat umah doing nothing.. (although when im at home pun aku dah tak larat nak wat keje2 umah)

Baru je awal bulan hari tu aku admitted kat Hospital Putrajaya. Seminggu kat sane pun dah cukup buat aku lembik coz too much rest and sleep. Its just happen all of sudden jek. Petang 21/7/10 ade pesta buah-buahan kat hotel aku. Aku pun melantak tak hengat..byk jugakla manggis & langsat aku makan. Durian 4 5 ulas je sbb takut baby panas. Mlm tu badan tak sedap..sejuk2 cam nak demam je..tibe2 muntah2,batuk2,selsema sampai menggigil2 tak boleh tido..esok tu MC tunggu papa balik bwk gi klinik...

Check2 doc suruh refer gi Hospital Putrajaya sbb suhu 39 and baby no movement. I started to worried coz i cant help from blaming myself mkn buah2 ptg smlm..sampai2 je kat wad bersalin,doc bace suhu,terus suruh tukat baju..aku dah agak ni sure kena admitted! Sian papa tunggu dr kul 3-7pm kat luar sbb doc terus buat CTG utk check jantung baby,amik darah,urine ape bagai..family aku dtg pn tak dpt masuk tgk sbb doc tak benarkan=(

Bilik tu sikit punye sejuk AC die tp aku berpeluh2 sbb panas badan. Malu jugak bile kene buka panties and dikangkangkan oleh doc laki plak tu..but sbb too weak,aku tak pikir dah malu tu..i dont know what they done,yg pastinya 3 org doc and 3 nurse keliling aku monitor CTG tu. Paling tak boleh blah,doc yg nak amik sample darah aku tu mcm meragukan je..dahla die dh cucuk,then biar darah aku meleleh byk baru tekan dgn kapas!!tah pape je..then masuk drip dekat 6 botol jgk la within 4 hrs tu..byk btl aku kene masuk air..then dorang bagi suntik kat bontot utk matangkan paru2 baby.Sakitnye Ya Allah...Tuhan je tau!!sampai nak nangis aku tahan..then cucuk plak kat urat arteri utk amik darah lg. Doc tarik kuar je jarum tu,terus bengkak mcm kena sengat tangan aku! Biru lebam sampai 2 minggu..

After 7pm dorang pindahkan aku ke labour room. Cuak sgt sbb dengar perbualan doc tu ade contraction katenye,if terpakse kene bersalin awal,they have to prepare ventilator la pe bagai..aku berdoa je supaya tu sume takkan berlaku sbb taknak baby lahir tak cukup bulan..lampu dibuka..jeng3..aku dikangkangkan..jeng6.. doc tu masukkan satu alat mcm mulut itik i guess dlm kemaluan aku. saaaaakiitt jgn ckpla...die sumbat benda tu and it is like something menyedut keluar..tercungap2 aku menahan,nurse tu boleh kate "kenapa?u ade athma ke??" WTF?? im too weak too ask or too see what they are doing....but one thing im very sure its nothing to do with the baby....

I told the doc "nak terkencing"..die pun cepat2 amik satu tiub and i was like "oh no.."tak sempat aku ckp pape,die dah sumbat tiub tu dalam kemaluan aku lg skali and pakse aku kencing..i cannot tahan and terkencing jugak but the pain i tell u...tak puas 1,saki baki byk lagi,celah kangkang basah and it makes me SICK!!

Tgh malam tu aku tak dpat tido langsung sbb doc and nurse datang every 1 hour to change water drip,to check CTG reading so lau tido pun,kejap2 terjaga..3.30am bilik sebelah aku ade orang nak bersalin..dengarla die jerit2,dgn suara doc lg suruh push2..berpeluh2 aku dgr..half an hour later dgr baby nangis..i guess mcm tu la situasi aku nnti..seram siot...

Esok doc tukarkan ke wad lg satu..i have been given intensive care. Sarapan dpt,lunch,minum petang and dinner everyday, kejap2 doc dtg check condition..im getting sick sbb im not that type yg suka baring too long and when i get up they ask me to lay down,rehat n evrythng..bosanlah!

Day 3-Doc masukkan aku dlm wad H1N1 coz they said my result is POSITIVE! wat tha?? i dnt knw whre i got that from. Luckily ward tu ade bathroom,ade TV cume view rooftop la..all the time i had to wear mask sbb takut merebak kat visitors or doctor..everyday doing the same thing,celik mata pagi2,bfst,tgk tv,mandi,tido..smapaila hari ke6..bil sampai RM450 tp sbb wabak H1N1,government yg tanggung,i dont have to pay or use my panel clinic..

Esok tu doc bagi kuar hospital dgn syarat kuarantin kat umah for another 9 days..lembik sgt badan..kuar2 je hospital,muka aku mcm kene sunburn,lemah tak brdaya..i told u,aku tak suka duk baring je coz when i have too much rest,aku jadi cam sayur..balik tu papa singgah Pizza Hut beli meaty pizza and balik makan kat umah..sampai umah we slept and esok tu papa dh gi keje although die pun dpt surat yg doc allowed him to quarantine with me as well..nak wat cmne,boss die pun cam sial je soh stg gak keje..

Anyway enuf with that..i just hope semua tu takkan berlaku lg..and im dying to see my baby yg akan kuar tak lame lg ni..hopefully the day after delivery nnti esok tu aku dah boleh discharge coz taknak lg duk spital lame2....

Im Now 30 Weeks Pregnant!

On the to-do list for the coming weeks, I still have to…

• Get the playroom setup. (I know baby won’t need a playroom, but it is a small room at my house that will have all the toys that don’t fit in the nursery, the playpen, toys for nephew and other kids, etc. – kind of a necessity, especially once I go back to work.)
• Finish the baby shopping (including the rest of our cloth diapers, infant medications, and some other stuff).
• Pre-register at the hospital. (Yeah, I know, I totally should have that done already – but I spent weeks looking for their phone number to schedule an appointment, only to find out that I don’t need one! Stupid hospital… LOL! I may be doing it tonight, if hubby gets home early enough.)
• Finish shopping for the home birth supplies. (Not much left on that list, just a lot of the disposable stuff and some old towels.)

That is pretty much it, then we’re done!

So, how am I doing?

How far along?

30 weeks today!

Total weight gain/loss:

No idea. I stopped keeping track on the Wii Fit completely. All I know is that at my last midwife appointment, I had *finally* gone above my pre-pregnancy weight – which the midwife was very happy about!

Maternity clothes?

Of course! The problem is, it all looks lke 'makcik' to me..but i have few..keep rotating it every once in awhile..=p

Stretch marks?

Not that obvious, although apparently they aren’t that noticeable from what friends and family say. I notice them though, so I’ve been using stretch mark cream to get rid of them.

Sleep?

Good! Kicks aren’t waking me up anymore. I get up to pee about 3 times at night, BUT I wake up refreshed and ready to start the day. Those iron supplements that the midwife prescribed are really helping.

Movement?

Constant. She just doesn’t stop! People have a good time sitting across the room, watching my belly roll around… They think its hilarious! I wonder when it’s going to calm down a little bit so I can rest! For some reason, her kicking so much just makes me feel like I’m doing dozens of crunches every day.

Food cravings?

Lots and lots of veggies + chocolates! Mmmmm…

Labor Signs?

Belly Button in or out? It actually depends on her position. Sometimes in, sometimes almost all the way out. Still visible through my clothes when it is out, though.

What I am looking forward to?

Playing in the pool this weekend, and camping next holiday for our anniversary! YEAH!

Weekly Wisdom?

If you do a Kegel or two every time you pee, you won’t have wet yourself by the time you hit 33 weeks! Of course, that may change from this point on, but I’m very proud of not having wet myself yet!

Terujaaaa...

Cepatlah sikit mase berlalu..tak sabar nak tunggu baby lahir. Semalam pergi appoinment doctor lagi. Dah bosan la asyik ulang alik ke klinik nak2 kandungan dah masuk 7 bulan ni,mesti jumpe doctor 2 minggu sekali. Bengkak2,lebam2 tangan aku kene inject je.. Doctor buat scan semalam, die kate maybe baby girl..Tapi die pesan jgn excited sgt sbb mesin scan tu pun bknnye clear sgt..sbb stgh2 org scan 3 4 kali doc kate girl,tapi bile kuar,boy pulak..

Baby nanti dah keluar kene panggil MAMA tau sbb mama panggil daddy PAPA. Ramai orang tak sabar tunggu baby lahir. Family mama,family papa, sedara mara,kawan2 mama,kawan2 papa..Last nite mama mimpi baby gerak2 pastu tangan and kaki baby sampai tembus perut mama. So i hold your hand and baby genggam kuat2. I can feel ur skin very smooth and soft,so small..seriously i cant wait to hold u tight!!

Mama still fikir lagi nama nak letak kat baby sbb mama mcm nak tukar je Nasywa tu. Az Zahra mama remain..baby jangan majuk ye mama tukar2 nama..papa pun asyik tukar2 fikiran je..

Baby...mama tak sabar tunggu baby lahir!!!!!!!!!!!!..............

Its Not Easy Being A Mother..

Semakin hari semakin penat.. Perut semakin membesar.. Jalan sikit je dah termengah2.. Tak baik mengeluh kan.. Sebab kandungan 9 bulan ni sebenarnye Tuhan bagi banyak rahmatnye.. Dosa2 kecil kite terhapus sikit2 selama 9 bulan ni.. Normal lah kot to feel tired like this....

Baby semakin banyak menendang lately..kadang2 rase macam angin meletup2 je..kadang2 tu sakit.. orang kate baby tengah moving and mybe die tersiku or tertendang mase tengah beralih kedudukan.. sometimes aku boleh terjaga malam sbb gerakan die..susah nak pejam mata balik..

Berat baby dalam 2 pound.. penat jugaklah bile bergerak ke dapur, lepas kencing, lepas makan.. tapi takpe.. coz i love this baby soo much~_~

Next month dah boleh start shopping for baby's item..ohhh im so excited!!! the only thing that makes me feel a bit unhappy is that i did not know the gender yet..kalau dah tau,for sure i'll choose pink for the girl and blue for the boy..

Well, doesnt matter actually.. im just hoping that evrything will go on smoothly..harap2 baby yg dikandung ni sihat,sempurna fizikal,dan mnjadi anak yg baik...insyaAllah...

A Name For 'HER"?

Tak sabarnye nak tau jantina bayi dlm kandungan aku ni.. Bukan tak pergi scan tapi each time scan susah nak nampak. Die sangat pemalu and menyorok je..so lame2 give up dah nak figure out..as long as die membesar dgn sempurna and sihat cukuplah..its been like 5 and a half month dah. Hujung bulan ni genap 6 months. Im so excited and btl2 tak sabar nak tunggu die lahir..maklumlah,first baby kan..

Sekarang pun die aktif sgt bergerak2 dalam perut ni. Setiap masa die menendang and for the first time hari ni aku mule rase sakit tiap kali die kick. Before this tak sakit sgt,mcm rase angin meletop2 je but now dah mula terkejut2 each time die kick. Tapi takpelah baby, at least it shows that you are healthy and normal=)

I kept on thinking the suitable name to give for the baby even tho i still dnt knw whether its a girl or a boy yet. Honestly, Im really hoping that its a GIRL but if its a boy also i wouldnt mind coz its still my child after all. Mak aku nak sangat letak name die Fatimatul Zahra. I know its such a beautiful name. Nama anak nabi yg mulia akhlaknya. But for me,Fatimah tu mcm tak best pulak..Zahra is okay for me. My husband pulak minat nama Syafinatun Nasywa which we saw dalam buku nama2 anak dalam Islam. I??nak nama yang modern2 and sedap disebut but its not really important coz if takde makna dlm Islam pun tak guna jugak.

So i decided untuk gabungkan nama pilihan mak aku and pilihan husband aku so it will became Nasywa Az-Zahra. Ok tak? Nasywa means 'kegembiraan' and Zahra means 'bunga kebahagiaan'..hopefully anak ni akan memberi cahaya kebahagiaan dalam keluarga aku.. thats for girl. Untuk nama anak lelaki aku tak decide pun lagi..nnti aku search. But this time aku nak bapak aku yg pilih and aku yang pilih heheee baru fair and square!!